mezzo pianissimo.

Saturday, 8 August 2009 ♥

20:16 ;

Moved to LJ. Not like I can post on Blogger anyway.

After all, I only wish to hear the cadence of silence, since I've gone beyond the ranges of lyriclessness and dementedness.

L♥VE. 20:16 ♥

Sunday, 19 July 2009 ♥

23:12 ;

Once I had a dream
And this is it

Once there was a child's dream
One night the clock struck twelve
The window open wide
Once there was a child's heart
The age I learned to fly
And took a step outside

Once I knew all the tales
It's time to turn back time
Follow the pale moonlight
Once I wished for this night
Faith brought me here
It's time to cut the rope and fly

Fly to a dream
Far across the sea
All the burdens gone
Open the chest once more
Dark chest of wonders
Seen through the eyes
Of the one with pure heart
Once so long ago

The one in the Big Blue is what the world stole from me
This night will bring him back to me

Fly to a dream
Far across the sea
All the burdens gone
Open the chest once more
Dark chest of wonders
Seen through the eyes
Of the one with pure heart
Once so long ago

Fly to a dream
Far across the sea
All the burdens gone
Open the chest once more
Dark chest of wonders
Seen through the eyes
Of the one with pure heart
Once so long ago

- "Dark Chest of Wonders" by "Nightwish".

It reflects the simple innocence of a child.

Something that I'd definitely want to have in this life. To have "All the burdens gone", and have a "pure heart".

Funny how it has such a dark title.

L♥VE. 23:12 ♥

Wednesday, 15 July 2009 ♥

04:38 ;

To the girl who whacks me to keep me from emo-ing:

Hello! Happy birthday! Hope you enjoy Sweet 16! Thanks for being with me all this while, whether through tough times of happy times. Thanks also for still being a friend for me always there since Primary School! Don't know if you remember, but you always used to be the mediator between me and my "Da Jie" hahaha.

And don't get stressed over things yup! Just remember you can come and talk to me as well! I'm not always emo haha xD

Alright, you'll probably whack me for staying up so late (early), so I'll go off now!

Happy 16!

P.S. I don't usually name people unless per request, so I won't name you ((:

L♥VE. 04:38 ♥

Tuesday, 14 July 2009 ♥

23:38 ;

I wonder how much will it take for you to hate me.

L♥VE. 23:38 ♥

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14:23 ;

Maybe people should be forced to make a choice upon birth. The choice of whether you choose engaging in love and relationships or in friendships.

What incentive is there?

Ever heard of the famous Simon and Garfunkel song "I Am a Rock"? One of the lines goes:

If I never loved, I never would have cried.

Sad fact, but it's the truth. Often first love never works out. Even my P6 Chinese teacher used to tell us that our first boyfriend/girlfriend would never be your permanent spouse or stead.

Of course, she said that there's a small chance that it will still work out. But it is a fact.

And recently, I found this song, sung by Nightwish. "Ghost Love Score". I haven't finished analysing the entire set of lyrics, but unfortunately I believe that it reflects a sad and undying love of someone for his or her lover.

Here are the lyrics, anyway.

We used to swim the same moonlight waters
Oceans away from the wakeful day

My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I'll bleed forever

Scent of the sea before the waking of the world
Brings me to thee
Into the blue memory

My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I'll bleed forever

Into the blue memory

A siren from the deep came to me
Sang my name my longing
Still I write my songs about that dream of mine
Worth everything I may ever be

The Child will be born again
That siren carried him to me
First of them true loves
Singing on the shoulders of an angel
Without care for love n` loss

Bring me home or leave me be
My love in the dark heart of the night
I have lost the path before me
The one behind will lead me

Take me
Cure me
Kill me
Bring me home
Every way
Every day
Just another loop in the hangman`s noose

Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home
Every way, every day
I keep on watching us sleep

Relive the old sin of Adam and Eve
Of you and me
Forgive the adoring beast

Redeem me into childhood
Show me myself without the shell
Like the advent of May
I`ll be there when you say
Time to never hold our love

My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
You were the one to cut me
So I will bleed forever

- "Ghost Love Score", by Nightwish

This must be what happens when someone dedicates his or her love to someone in great amounts. Eventually when that love is wasted on the person, having been rejected, the person as good as loses his/her mind, and then that progresses down the road of sorrow, pain and agony.

That road is a terrible road to travel towards, so one must be careful not to end up down that road. It's too steep to traverse safely, so don't try to go down by yourself. And don't try to hook yourself onto other friends. They'll just get dragged down onto a different path of stress and emotional duress.

Now, go away.

L♥VE. 14:23 ♥

Thursday, 9 July 2009 ♥

20:38 ;

I'm sorry. Please forgive what I said.

L♥VE. 20:38 ♥

Tuesday, 7 July 2009 ♥

23:47 ;

And it seems that emotions are floating around in the air currently.

Some of them high, some of them spaced out, some of them just plain.

But all of them bear a certain element of expression within them.

Whether it's fondness, whether it's sadness, whether it's thoughtfulness, whether it's sheer joy, nervousness, anger, even just fun-loving...

They're all still there.

So somehow, I feel all these sensations floating in the air.

Whether through direct contact or hearing about it from someone, or even from feeling it myself, I can feel it.

I interpret its nature, follow its flow through people's lives, and finally begin to touch it at my fingertips. I then try to gauge its flow, its intensity, and slowly plunge myself bit-by-bit into it, relishing or cringing at every step I take, yet exploring the vast depths of it.

But ever so often, emotions change, and another current sweeps over and interrupts your exploration. And ever so often, you go on to another current and follow its strong pull towards another destination.

And the cycle repeats.

I don't know, I just felt kind of prosaic, and decided to write down a little something of what I would describe emotions as: A series of great big currents that overlap constantly and never let you dwell long enough in it.

But there's something I forgot.

Currents are part of a greater current, which is the main general category of mood. So respectively, if you dwell too much on those currents in that greater current, then you'll end up feeling a particular type of mood. This isn't too good for you either.

So often, we throw ourselves into a feeling before realising that it's taking us elsewhere, but it's too late to turn back.

Humans are regretful things. Feelings incite regret often. Humans should forsake feelings to be effecient workers.

L♥VE. 23:47 ♥